Written on 5th of April:
Happy belated anniversary, bros!


Unfortunately, the pace of life has been getting increasingly hectic for me and I never feel comfortable until my work is finished, not including my own revision. I heard getting A's are very difficult for A levels, coz now I'm gonna be pitted against tons of people who are both smart and hardworking. Plus, TPJC doesn't exactly do well in terms of results, so I want to work harder than the average dude to reach my dream-goal of getting at least 4 As (2 H1, 2H1) and a B (H2). I think the 2 As for my H1 subjects are attainable, but I still have a long way to go for my H2s.


But enough about that, I think I owe content that's at least more interesting than my studies, so here goes...


I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before, but my life feels like...it's perfect. I've learnt a lot about myself, and about life. I feel like I've grown, matured, transformed into a much better person than I used to be.


On matters related to us, one of the things I've learnt is how significant knowledge of music is. I tried jamming with people who have no musical background, like those who don't have a sense of timing or are tone-deaf, and I found it quite difficult to get something to be played properly. After that experience, I appreciate the knowledge that I have.


I also realised just how much I'm used to playing along to Zulraihan's drumming and Hafiz' guitar, it feels like something's missing when you play with people without knowledge of music. I think we've got some kind of band chemistry, and I feel satisfied whenever I hang out with you guys. Yesterday was great man.


I was also wondering, maybe u guys could get to know my songfest bandmates, they're the kind that listen and play metal too. Though, I don't think we'd be jamming until after the next exam...


Written on 29 May:
I always thought I'd finish the post above, but I never got to doing it. The reason? I tried to give an update on all the stuff that had surfaced in my mind since the last post, which is pretty stupid of me, actually. I guess I'll just talk about more recent things from now on. Lesson learned.

Anyway, I can feel the pressure of my upcoming A levels, and my tutors say that June is our final chance to catch up. It's in 5 months, which is not very far away from my point of view, and prelims are even sooner.

I just got back this math test on statistics, and I got 22/40. It makes me disappointed knowing that I got this kinda marks primarily due to poor time management. Most of my CG (Civics Group, i.e. a more impressive way of saying class) mates got around 30/40, which shows how hard people have been working, especially compared to last year. The rest of us got around the same marks as me. The feeling sucks, knowing that you're not working at your full potential and I certainly don't want to end up retaking another year.

I've come up with a study plan for the June holidays, which is more of a study-holiday for me. Here are the things I need to accomplish over the hols:

H1
Physics: Revise syllabus
GP: 4 essay outlines, 1 compre

H2
Chem: cover 3 chapters & 1 A-level paper (1 & 2)
Math: cover 4 chapters & 3 JC prelim papers (1 & 2)
Econs: cover 1 textbook, revise 2 textbooks (Macroeconomics)

It will be frustrating, but it is achievable. I also plan to have breaks in between, which kind of motivate me to finish my work within a certain time period. But these breaks are not that long, so they don't include going out. I'll only be going out if I've finished what I've planned and there's time.

Up to here, all I've been talking about so far is my studies, but it kinda reflects my state of mind right now. I've been getting less concerned about other things around me as I figure how much I have yet to do, how the rest move on and how much time is left.

I'm not stressed over studying, but I do realise that it's time I take action, especially since I've been slacking off for the past week or two. A day lost during the holiday will have to be paid with another day in the future, within the holiday period. Time in June is really precious to me, and I'll make sure I get my studies straightened out to my potential this time.

Hope you guys are doing well. I look forward to the last week of June, I think I should be finished with what I've aimed to achieve by then.

All the best guys
Imran