Neonixehertz.

27.11.07

"Go learn style your hair.."
Haha.Thanks emilla/sis.
But you know me;i dont really care about how i look. i have my reasons..
And like i said countless times, i'm ugly..i know.lols.
But again,that dont matter to me.
Personality and character-wise,that matters ALOT to me.
Frankly,theres no reason for me to dress up or look nice.

Its been some time.
i dont know,is it long ago?Its like nothing to me.
Because it seems like as if theres no difference.
Alot has happened since then..
i believe that was the last time.
Whatever.Like i said,there's no difference isnt it.
i'm beginning to realise that,
It actually has taken it's shit on me.
But trust me,its so far behind that its lost already.
i didnt bother to care..i did.But in the end..its nothing.
Thing is,because of it,i..i dont know.
Because of it,alot has changed.
Because of it,everything's left hanging;unanswered.
Because of it,theres fear,uncertainty and shit everywhere.
It just somehow carry on as memory..
When its not suppose to.
i have no reason AT ALL to tell whether is it good or bad.
i hope i have made you smile or laugh at least ONCE.
And i hope you're smiling and laughing for your happy life now.
Not that i am not happy with my life.
In fact,i am.i just want to be thankful to Allah.
But i dont know if this is a curse/"curse" or whatsoever..
Only Allah knows..and i pray to Him for life to better for others..
And myself.

Anyway,i just realized that term test is the week after next.
Thakloy,Pab-Butz,Pokay-Wak,Wafadakas..
i've been missing alot.What the hell of an attitude i'm having..
i shall change starting today,right now.
On time for lessons and study since test is coming.
Not forgetting to be attentive in class instead of being in lalaland and snoozing on Earth.
(=

Its really testing me.
Going nuts,crazy and insane.
Best way to describe: 100% optimism pulled down by 99% negativity.
Its okay.
"..you just have to believe in yourself.."
i will never forget those words.
Thank you,beloved sec 2 form teacher.Haha!
(=

LASTLY,
i'm in love with Iron Maiden's Hallowed Be Thy Name.
And Cradle of Filth's cover of the song.
If only i can scream like that.. \m/
Too bad,i'm on the drums and not vox.
(=

Posted By Zul at 11:26 PM

25.11.07

First of all,
i would like to thank Allah/God.
For giving me this ability to see and think.

Alright,straight to the point.
About 6-7 months ago,
i saw this 'whole thing' already.
i am sad that its actually the fact and reality..
Although we were taught and known to be,
'One big family'.
Tried to make a difference.
But i forgot that there's too many people to please.
And you just cant change the way someone think.
i heeded my brother's advice.
At first,i was sad because i felt left out,
Just because of the advice,
Seeing my friends so happy.
But i do feel VERY happy for them.
Seeing things at that point of time,
i just have a feeling its gonna happen.
Nevertheless,i continued hoping that things would get better.
For everyone of course.
However,as time goes on..
It happened,damn.
Things became more obvious i guess.
More and more people are realising and experiencing it first hand.
Just makes it worse.
i really never wanted this to happen.
Who the hell wants it?
Now people see what i saw.
From my point of view,i never wanted anyone to see it.
Because the truth sucks.
But now,i REALLY dont regret heeding my brother's advice.
These people,who are in 'IT',dont like to be helped.
But their job is to help others.What the hell.
So now it becomes "job".
Irony is,they are ones who somehow caused it.
Maybe its because they are up there..
And we're just the 'normal/lower-class' idiots.
And now,
i have a very bad feeling that things are gonna get ugly for everyone.
i really hope it doesnt happen.
Because if it does,
Bottomline:
World War 3.
LOL.
We'll see what happens.
But i wont just sit and do nothing.
i will not give up and keep trying to make things better.
i just believe this is all crap.
There is a way out..there is.

i'm a super very straightforward person.
i dont say certain thingsso as not to hurt others'.
But if you think i'm being lame,
i'll just shoot you with whatever i have to say in your face.
Simple.

Posted By Zul at 11:28 PM

24.11.07

Nothing to say.
Just this for the moment.

FUCKING HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alright.
VERY Much better.
(Fucking hell is on behalf of ppl who were pissed/emo,and me myself,nt for being pissed.For some fucking hell re..aiyah whathefuckever.Hope you guys are feeling better.It was great time lepaking the other night and everyone just losing it.
Hadi/Nephew - Chill bro.No point of being so angry over that.Trust me.
Emilla/Sis - Erm..chill alright.Dont wish to say much cos i might piss you off.
Jamil - Another one..chill.Get well soon.
Haziq - You SUCK at cs!Haha no la jk..Thanks for playing in the end.
Roy - Sry we didnt accompany you to your bus stop,beaver.
And i really like my name in CS the other night.You guys would agree right?HAHA.
)

Posted By Zul at 11:58 PM

17.11.07

TPRawks 2007.
14-16 Nov.

It has been a great pleasure to serve and lead.
Great experience of being a PL,especially when you're the pioneer badge of rawkers.
i can only imagine and remember being in their shoes when i look at the rawkers.
TPRawks 2007 was definitely better than last year's.
From the food,activities,jam and hop..everything.
This year's rawkers are a bunch of really lucky people.
Most of the things went well i guess.
i dont know how i did.
Maybe good,maybe bad.
i gave out all i got i guess.
So yea,no regrets and i'm glad i did my best for the 3 days.
Thinking about it again,
Its really okay if i dont get into OTC.
Give in to others you know.
Somehow it just doesnt matter to me anymore like how it used to.
If you really want a place in OTC,ya go get it then.
And i guess there's other people who really deserve to be in OTC.
But anyway,kudos to everyone who made TPRawks 2007 possible and..
i shall say it proudly..a success.
Yeap,everyone..Upper management,SU,CLs,PLs and most importantly,
The Rawkers themselves.
(=

Happy,but really feeling like an idiot now.

Posted By Zul at 8:59 AM

8.11.07

Finally after 3 months..
Nxhz. ,stepped into the studio;
to play some shit.
And i swear to God,
We SUCK. [actually i only wanted to say i suck.but imran would say he sucked too and so does hafiz.so yea,its a 'we']

Imran had his finger cut by the strings and his hand got tired faster as it has been a very long time since he played some fast rifts.
Hafiz still has his touch but of course,speed went down.
But these 2 have always been good.
Me?i thought air-drumming could cover me up but..i was wrong.
Here's what happened:
-i forgot how to play a few songs
-the sticks keep slipping off my hand [didnt i told ya i do not know how to hold sticks?]
-speed went down
-my right feet is bruised [stupid uncle adjust the mallot so low.and its those plastic CHUNK mallot thats used by proffesionals.so yea,i had that constantly hitting my feet.Hafiz had a taste of it,haha]

It really felt good to jam.
Both physically and..emotionally.
For all the 3 of us. xD
i really really hope we can somehow return to our usual form.

Anyway,
Happy Deepavali too all indians.

i'm starting to like being a part-time sociologist.
LOL.

Posted By Zul at 12:10 PM

5.11.07

The art of Mental Dysfunction.

Posted By Zul at 1:24 AM