Neonixehertz.

30.9.07

Where do i take this pain of mine
I run but it stays right by my side

So tear me open,pour me out
These things inside that scream and shout
And the pain still hates me
So hold me,until it sleeps

Just like the curse,just like the stray
You feed it once,now it stays..now it stays

So tear me open but beware
These things inside without a care
And the dirt still stains me
So wash me,until i'm clean

It grips you,so hold me.
It stains you,so hold me.
It hates you,so hold me.
It holds you,so hold me,
Until it sleeps

So tell me why you've chosen me
Don't want your grip,don't want your greed..i don't want it

I'll tear me open,make you gone
No more can you hurt anyone
And the fear still shakes me
So hold me,until it sleeps

It grips you,so hold me.
It stains you,so hold me.
It hate you,so hold me.
It holds you,holds you,holds you..
Until it sleeps..until it sleeps.

So tear me open but beware
These things inside without a care
And the dirt still stains me
So wash me,till i'm clean
I'll tear me open,make you gone
No longer will you hurt anyone
And the hate still shakes me
So hold me,until it sleeps..

Until it sleeps.
\m/

Posted By Zul at 5:40 PM

14.9.07

Alo.
Well first of all.
i would like to wish all my muslim friends,
Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa.
(And selamat berbuka which takes effect everyday for the 30 days of fasting,HAH.bababa.)

Anyway,results were out 2 days ago.
I dunno how hafiz did cos i havent asked him.
When he's actually my coursemate.
And there's no point to talk abt mine anyway.
So yeah.
Congrats to those who did well.Keep up the good work.
And to those who feels disappointed or heartbroken,its alright.There's still next semester and i'm sure you guys can do well.Do feel lucky that you're permitted to next sem.

To Nadiah-biol-gila-buang-tebiat-nak-mampus,
Translation:Nadiah-siao-crazy-throw-mad-want-to-die. (bababa.)
Why? Jealous is it? JC STILL GOT EXAMS IS IT?!?!?!?!
AWW SO POOR THING.GO AND MUG LA DEY.
I'm having my holidays and already gotten my results.See la,who ask you go jc.
I'm not saying jc is stupid (actually it is la,c'mon lets be straight especially when it comes to YOU) but you should have known if you can cope with it or not.Aiyah nvm la you girl mah.Waste one year oso okay mah..tak payah NS perrRR..
Dont come to me and start complaining abt jc-life,again.Bababa.
Thats the danger of coming to this stupid blog and start commenting stupidly on stupid stuff.You'll get super stupid irritating reply as well.And thats when i'll say..BABABA.

Haiya Imran..
What la.
Babi la you.
You playing in jc is it?
Hahaha,sry dude.I jz need to say that.Frustrated i guess.Its been monthS.
Never thought nxhz. would go through "hibernation-mode" again. (Thats cos of O's)
Nvm2..studies is more important.
But if you say that your promos ends on 12 oct,then i really feel sorry for you.
Next day is hari raya.Tsk3...

Before i end to have my sahur,
i think this would be useful to some of you guys.
Dedicated to those who called the HELP-QUACK hotline.
i suddenly thought of this when i was riding.
This is what riding can partly do to me,
Think of crazy things.

Sometimes when you're feeling low,its alright.
It just shows that you're a normal human being.
No matter how strong someone is,
They will fall once a in a while.
Is a matter how you pick yourself up and how well you deal with it.
If you're feeling down,dont think about how far you still need to go in life.
Think about how far you've went.That is where you'll realise who you are.
All the things that you experienced to get through all that pain.
Sometimes when you just feel like as if you're not yourself again,
Thats not true.You are still who you were and the feeling that you get is just something new.
That is what you call a change.
Sometimes you dont like them but sooner or later you will have to accept it as a part of you yourself.
May be frustrating at first but always regard "change" as changes for the better.
Why must we always view things that we dont like in a negative way?
Try and view it in a positive manner in such a way that it actually benefits us.
That way,whatever comes,you'll learn to only take everything that is good abt it.
Life is only once.Be happy all the time while you can.
For life is not a destination.It is a journey.
Do not fear death.Be afraid of the unlived life.

Alright thats it.
\m/

I was never in your mind..was i?

Posted By Zul at 4:20 AM

5.9.07

Was just going through my lappy to clear any unnecessary stuff.
Here's what I found.LOL.
Thought it would be nice to share, ...only after i made it nicer.

Posted By Zul at 2:49 AM

2.9.07

"Standing at the margin's edge; see where the day break ends.
You can find compassion here but the page turns too fast..
We fell in this hole that opened up,
Giving up on hopes,
Living without love.."

Hey.Exams' over. (A few days ago for afiz and me that is,haqiim still has 4-5 weeks to promos.)
Enjoyed study week alot.Pretty much playing/joking around most of the time when i'm "studying".
Hanged out with friends, had a great time studying togther or either joking around or teasing them.
I wish all the best for all my tp contacts for their results.In the meantime,enjoy now.Haha.
Ride just now,forgot what time i came back but its sure damn nice to go out riding at night and going home back late at night/early in the morning, just like the old times.
Looking at things now,i can predict that neon is gonna jam like..after hari raya? Unless hopefully i have time myself and Mr.Imran is willing to spare some time.Same goes for afiz..nt being sarcastic here but..(DAH ADE MATAIR MAH..LOL).
Anyway,went back to dunman last friday.Found out that all graduating classes are now air-conditioned.Dunman is pampering the kids too much.So much for saying the school has one of the highest electricity bills.We werent allowed to go upstairs but who gives a damn or F about it.Went to our old classroom to see the leftovers of our class deco and a picture of a SUPER DAMN HANDSOME FELLA at the front wall.This is how the notice board used to look like..

This is what happens when the class notice board becomes unused.Some of the guys and myself started drawing and walla,the board became a piece of art.The heart and stingray tail was a tribute to the late Steve Irwin. R.i.p dude. "Waktu Berbuka" was written there during the fasting month,lols.It means time of break-fast.But my favourite is still the most emo sentence on the board.As seen from the picture,its at the top written in pink.i wrote that because on one particular day,i'm saw almost the whole class so gloomy and sad because they were all stressed up with work and preparation for the Os.So i went up there and wrote that which is Metallica's chorus from the song "One".i thought it would be something to ponder upon when they look at it,either in a good or bad way,depends on whether they're emo-ing in a happy or sad mood.And of course,some thought i needed help/treatment for writing that.LOL.Okay,enough with that.

Alot of things happened. (Not alot on the outside)
Lots of ups and downs. (Sometimes its just neutral)
Sometimes,i dont know. (i really dont)
I thank Allah for all theses but (i really do)
Dont know whether its good or bad. (i think its both)
I guess everything's good and fine if you know how to use it in the best possible way. (Yep)
But sometimes it just goes too far. (sometimes too far,that its hard to go back)
This unexplained perspective.
This unnamed feeling.
Makes me feel good but may drive me mad as well. (very)
Everytime i give excuses to myself. (not alot la)
Everyone in this world wants happiness and wants to be happy. (who doesnt?)
But like it or not,there's more sad than happy in life.But i strongly believe if we appreciate and treasure the happy times,we feel we're happy more than sad in our lives. (i do strongly believe)
But if all wants to be happy,who's gonna get all the sad. (yep,who?)
There must be someone or some people and maybe i'm one of them. (wtheck am i thinking)
It is crazy but..
i feel happy when i see others happy as well. (yup,i really do.that is why i always want to make others happy.its in my blood somehow)
Maybe this IS part of being a teenager. (getting to know yourself better)
Honestly,i'm nt ashamed to say all these cos its a like normal stuff for someone who's young to go through all this.Finding your identity and all that stuff,so yeah.To those of you guys who are still struggling to get through,hand in there.You'll find yourself. (=
Or if you need help just call this help-hotline at 1900-HELP-QUACK.
And now i know who i am. (a retarded freak,a crazy sicko and whatever that associates with crazy)
CHAH! (okay,now i really dunno what i'm talking about)

Anyway,
This is getting too long xia.
See,i talk alot of crap.
Oh yea,before i forget.
I MISS DOUBLE PEDALLING.
Okay,bye!

Posted By Zul at 4:38 AM