Neonixehertz.

31.7.07

Hello.
This blog/place/space or whatever-shit-you-call-this-thing is gonna be dead for awhile.
That's because Tp's exams are coming in around 3 weeks.
And Imran's exam are in september if im not mistaken.
Which also means sad to say we wont be jamming for 2 months and its already almost a month since we last jammed.Make that 3 months then.
I realise things are getting shitty for us..Cant blame it though.
We got our own everyday lives..
So much for the missing bassist..
Will we ever play in a gig?
Not forgetting our rusty-and-almost-gone skills.
Okay thats all.

Posted By Zul at 2:22 AM

21.7.07

Hey..yo.
I think I'm not having enough sleep.
Tired,sleepy..and sneezing like an idiot.
Ride yesterday.
Bedok skatepark [I don't know how to ride park.So how?Play anyhow la..] first.
Then to padang,that memorial thingy. Reached there just before midnight and rode for awhile before slacking.
We tuned in to Ria's pathetic 'Misteri Jam 12' from the truck with the pathetic Dj who already sounded super freaked out. Found a few chairs and we had our own "rewang" there while waiting for my bro who said he would join at 12+.In the end he came at 3+.While waiting,i got tired and sleepy thanks to my running nose.Laid down and poof,blackened.So there i was,sleeping on the floor along with giant who was snoring to the max.Haha.Woke up around half an hr later with my nose better and the radio off but they guys having their own ghost-story-telling session.Cycled around to wake myself up and started to get bored,so i tried doing some stuff.Was trying to do a far+high 180,slipped,too sleepy to bail,didnt let go of the bike,fell and.....had my pants torn and my ass scratched thanks to that long shaft which I haven't cut in 3 years.Yup,a nice hole there.
Honestly i have to admit,i thanked god it didnt stick up my rectum or else i wont be able to pangsai for a month as what happened to my friend.Hah!
Moments after i got up and all,my bro finally came and we rode around to entertain ourselves with some stupid stuff.The sky was already having lightnings and somewhere around 4,the first drop came down.We were like "Damn..load up!". Too bad it got heavier when we were loading up but didnt get that wet.Went to 7-11 and did some sight-seeing of girls at *LOL* before heading home.
And...I'm still sneezing.
Thats all.
Hope to jam soon.

Posted By Zul at 11:15 PM

17.7.07

So let it be written
So let it be done
I'm sent here by the chosen one
So let it be written
So let it be done
To kill the first born pharoah son
I'm Creeping Death.

Posted By Zul at 5:27 PM

15.7.07

Dear Dear,

Hope you're doing fine.Honestly,I miss you.Although we just talked the other day (when was that;yesterday?thousand years ago?),I miss you already.Yeap,pathetic,I know.But thats me;pathetic.Not to mention how pathetic I am,all I do is just bottle up.What's the point if I say it out anyway.It doesn't make any goddamn difference.It seriously really don't.Why?Because I suck thats why.But this feeling/feelings' has driven and still driving me nuts.Wait,what is feelings anyway?I don't have any cos I'm such a heartless idiot.I'm so sorry for all the bad and not-good times.Times where I made a mess of you and your life.I'm still trying to be a better person (when did I ever start?) but is there any change?I don't know..seems like not.There's too many bad things about me.Thinking about it again,why did I change/want to change?What was it for?Was it for you?Was it for myself?Cos it seems like its pointless in me trying to be nice.Once people know you for being someone who's bad,they're gonna see you that way till the day they die.From my eyes and those who experienced this kinda thing before,we wonder why wouldn't they open their eyes for at least a moment to think and actually see the good side of someone who tries/tried to change for the better?Aren't they the ones who called us bad in the first place?Means that they must be good but it makes us wonder,are they really THAT good after all? It really test your patience and honestly,it makes you super damn f*cking sad that you're trying to do something good and other people just come in your way,shatters almost every hope that you have.It makes me sad makes me think and think and think and think too many times whether is there any good of me being a better person.It really puts you through a hell where you're stuck in between anger,sadness and patience.But I'm not asking people to really go find out about me or see how good or "good" I am.No,I'm not an attention seeker or a self-proclaimed idiot.If you want to know someone better,thats really up to you to go and do it or not.But still,thats how I learned to control my anger and become someone who is patient.From a time where someone heats me up,I'll be throwing stuff to them or hearing those @*%$&)#^%!) words coming out from my mouth..to where I'll do my very best to ignore them and tell myself deep inside that I must be patient..to now,where I can totally ignore and even push that anger aside.Sometimes I do still say out those @*%$&)#^%!) words and go crazy but trust me,thats nothing.For me,its just for fun..because there are other much more bigger things in my life that I can be angry with but am helpless in almost each and every one of them.I regret and am so sorry for treating you like a piece of crap.If you think why am I being so pathetic,thats the question I'll ask myself too.I don't know.I just am maybe..I know you're not interested in me but I'm like a stupid idiot hoping and hoping.Shiok sendiri la senang kata.I'm just so stupid..Why do I even have such feelings when its hard for me to have a special someone..I just have these problems which aren't small and they're part of the reasons why I can't or hard to have a special someone in my life.I just don't want to trouble you with my problems.No matter how hard I try to solve them,the outcome is trying to tell me that they can't be solved and have no way out.Each time I try to be optimistic,either something bad or really bad comes in my way and indirectly tells me thats there's no point of me doing all that.All I want to do is just to make things and life better for others,everyone else and finally myself.I feel happy when I see others happy.I feel good and at peace when I help someone.It makes me feel like I'm being myself.That is why I want to see you happy.It makes me happy as well.But isn't it stupid that I'm able to help others but having so much trouble just to help myself?Pathetic isn't it?One of the reasons why I am pathetic.Apart from that,we too have our differences and I guess its alot.I can't make you happy anyway.You have your own ways..I have mine.I hope you understand me now dear.I appreciate it alot if you do.Whatever it is,thank you very much for being my friend.I just want you to know that..
If you need someone to talk to,I'll spare some time just to talk.
If you need someone who cares for you,just to let you know;I care for you,alot.
If you need someone to share your happiness with,I'm there to see you jump in joy.
If you need any help for your problems,I'm willing to listen and hear you out.
If you need a shoulder to cry on,mine is yours for you.
If you need a friend or someone,I'm here and will be there for you.
Thats all I can say..
There's nothing more that I can offer except this pathetic heart of mine. (oh wait,i'm heartless in the first place)
That's it dear.
Nothing else to say..

Posted By Zul at 4:51 AM

6.7.07

Metallica - One

I can't remember anything
Can't tell if this is true or dream
Deep down inside I feel to scream
This terrible of silence stops me
Now that the war is through with me
I'm waking up but I cannot see
That there's not much left of me
Nothing is real but pain now

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please God,help me..

Back in the womb is much too real
In pumps life that I must feel
But can't look forward to reveal
Look to the time when I'll live
Fed through the tube that sticks in me
Just like a wartime novelty
Tied to machines that made me be
Cut this life off from me

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please God,help me..

Now the world is gone, I'm just one
Oh God help me, Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please God help me..

Darkness
Imprisoning me
All that I see
Absolute horror
I cannot live I cannot die
Trapped in myself
Body my holding cell

Landmine
Has taken my sight
Taken my speech
Taken my hearing
Taken my arms
Taken my legs
Taken my soul
Left me life with hell

~

Went jamming today.
Long time no jam.
Out of nowhere,I was able to play One (Yes this song above).
All along, I wasn't able to play the song because.. (those knows/heard this song,you'll know why (x )
For years, (even before i started jamming) I've always wanted to play it.
So we tried the whole song for the first time.
Went great really. Nice one bros.
For such a hard and long song. Afiz ripped the riffs well and good (dont give up on the vocals bro,seriously your vox is nice),Imrant with a good attempt on the wicked solo,and me and my F-ed up part..A 7:25 min oldschool shit.
So.. yeah,just try to imagine how happy I am.
(=
I CAN PLAY ONE LA XIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELL YEAH!!! \mm/ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just hope I don't lose it.. -.-"
Other than that...
I think my mp3 is a Transformer.
It keeps turning on by itself.
Even after I switched it off.
Trying to communicate with me?
Dah,I don't know what else to say.
Oh yes,Claudine!
I'm am SO sorry... ><
Hope ya not disappointed or something..
Hmm,tell u wad.
To make up for it,I'll say:
Claudine,ni hen ke ai.
LOL!
( Torres won't kill me right? )
Hah,enough with the crap.I'm done.
Here's some pics.

Afiz. [Ciggies yaw..]

Mr Imrant. [His favourite expression for the camera]

In green = Khai. [Thanks for helping out on the bass,Khai]

Err,I don't know who's this spastic idiot.

Posted By Zul at 8:02 PM

1.7.07

Yo!
This is going to be a super short post.
Just typing here cos I'm bored and just got home.
From where? No need ask..wahahahahahahahahaha. xD
Imran, I think your post/posts make sense and are funny in a way.
So those of you lovely people who are reading this shit of mine,do read up on Imran's posts(which are those last 2 before this).
And Emilla a.k.a my elder sister/sis/sissy(LOL), sorry I didnt pick up your call.
Reason for not picking up: Was sleeping.
Reason for sleeping: Was feeling fucktup.
Reason for feeling fucktup: Hmm...
Reason for Hmm...: EH,how many reasons you want?
But I'm okay now. I was never okay and never not okay. Haha,up to you on how you want to understand that sentence. (=
Aku now dah addicted with power metal but I got not drums to practise. )=
I finally found a 7a size drumsticks with nylon tips.Cost 14 bucks but I got no money now(in the form of cash that is). And I yet to pay you back sis. Kahkah..
Don't know if can still play drums xia. Long time no play la xia.
But its alright..
No matter what,Heavymetal will still be a part of my soul.
Thats all la dey.
\mm/

Posted By Zul at 8:06 AM