Neonixehertz.

29.12.07

i fell in love..
with..
180.
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Posted By Zul at 1:55 AM

24.12.07

Gladly,i can smile knowing i have a good and happy life when i look/think abt it..

Box Car Racers - Cat Like Thief

I fell down again but i can't complain
Another false step could drive me insane
All i got myself here to blame so,
I shake off the seat and i start again
Oh no, i said i wanna go back
But i can't win this shit and i gotta stay on track
Yeah, make a deal like that
I keep my head up but i never react

I wrote it down; a list a month ago
16 chapters of one thing you've blown
The best thing yet to help you through and through
That she was i felt her more than you

Don't leave her..don't leave her..

I get up just to get knocked back down
I sit up just to get knocked all around
I wanna say something but you're out of town
I don't wanna have another short down
I say "Stand up hey,yo! Let's make it clear"
Follow you home, no, you were not there
You saw him coming, jump, you disappear
Home alone every night seems so clear
You think you see me here all along
Got my crew coming now
One by one
Two by two
Three by three
Four by four
Lets do some more

Call me back with words that now she's gone
Cat like thief she stole air from my lungs
Leave me standing on this lonely grave
I dug it out in case she turns away

Don't leave her..don't leave her..
Don't leave her..don't leave her..

Hmm..
Too bad she was the one who left you.
You blew your chance.
i got nothing to say.
i'm just happy with my life now.
(=

Anyway,i still have not been getting enough sleep after OTC and its almost a week already.
Projects and assigments..oh dear so lazy to do.
i hope i'll do all of it soon..
Thing left to do when you become too lazy to do anything,
Is to force yourself to do it.
Outings and outings coming up..wth.
First with phantos..then Y25.
School gonna start soon..a pathetic half day on 31st Dec,lol.

Y25 outing!
i know all of us are very busy.
And sorry for the times we held outings which almost no one came.
On behalf of your other 2 PLs,we're really sorry.
Yeah,but we don't see you guys as our rawkers anymore.
You guys are our friends,really.
So do help us out to make this next outing a success.
i don't care,i'm gonna set a day where everybody is free.
And i'm gonna drag everyone.
You guys wouldn't wanna see me go pekcek like how i did during tprawks when the 3 idiots disappeared right?
(x

Anyway,thats all.
\m/

Posted By Zul at 4:00 PM

22.12.07

Alamak..
Bloody motherfucker ar you..
Fucking hell,buat org stress.
Motherfucker.
Motherfucker.
Motherfucker.
MotherFUCKER.
MOTHERFUCKING MOTHERFUCKER.

Figure out yourself wth is that if you really want to know.
Now YOU tell me.
Are YOU proud of yourself right now?

Posted By Zul at 9:46 PM

21.12.07

First of all,
Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all muslims.
Advanced merry xmas to all christians and those celebrating it.
Advanced happy new year to everyone.

OTC 07.
17-19 Dec.
Of course,alot happened.
Too many to mention.
Basically,learnt few new stuff.
Be it about life,people in general,stupid stuff and profanities,lols.
But all comes down to 2 things;Good and Bad.
Lets not say all those shit here huh?
Was in Phantos Empire and we got 1st.
Unexpected to the max due to some reasons.
And i'm sure that all of us will be good GLs when FOW/FOC comes.
And that goes for everyone.

Very glad to say that i was able to prevent myself from my saying my favourite 'M' (nono..not MSB) word for all the 3 days of the camp.However after the camp,we were all talking crap and congratulations to Haziq,for being the first one after 3 days to get the 'M' word from me.Haha..MSB.

Anyway,it feels so much better. (=
But i dunno,
Mengapa kau seperti sudah berubah..
Aku mengerti kau sedang mengejar impian mu..
Tetapi janganlah kau lupa diri..
Hendak saja aku katakan..
Diri ini amat merindui diri mu yang sebenarnya..
But again,
Siapalah aku untuk mengata sana sini itu ini..
Aku harap kau bahagia selalu.
Thats important..
Thats all.
\m/

Posted By Zul at 8:41 AM

14.12.07

Its not my fault its like this.
Well,maybe it is.It has always been my fault isn't it?
It gives you one strong and exact reason to call me 'Pathetic'.
Like i said a thousand times before,it doesn't matter at all.
Because i'm stupid that's why.
Maybe you might even be saying to yourself "Who the FUCK is he?"
At times,i realized that i may be trying too hard to please others around me.
Why don't i just be myself? Why give a fuck if they don't like who you really are?
They either have 2 choices then.Accept the fact i'm like that or hate me.
Like i said a thousand times before,there's no use in me being nice.
However thinking about it again,it was my intention all along to be a better person.
Makes me wonder if characteristic,attitude and personality REALLY matters.
Of course i know and believe it does.
But they are not acting that way when it ALL comes out from their mouth in the first place.
Nothing surprising..
Like i said a thousand times before,whatever that makes you happy.
Not being pessimistic but..
IF only you knew the reason..
The reason why i took this path..
The path that really opens up your mind..
The mind to think and understand..
The understanding that opens up your eyes..
The eyes that lets you see to make your choices..
The choices that will either give you joy and peace or a living hell in/to your heart..
The heart to feel and live as a human..
Wait,i don't even have feelings.Like i said a thousand times before,i'm heartless.
Nevertheless,life has to go on.
Don't worry about me,i'm fine all along and happy always.
But again,IF only you knew..
IF only..

BUT,
That was 1679 days and every day of it ago.
Today,i made my decision.
Whatever that choice is,NEVER will i look back.
Because life's simple;you make choices and you don't look back.
Thats how you live without or with the least regrets.
And be confident of yourself.
So what you waiting for?
Here we go!
(=

Posted By Zul at 11:57 PM

2.12.07

Life,it seems to fade away
Drifting further everyday
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters,no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost;this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me,but now he's gone

No one but me,can save myself but its too late
Now I can think,think why I should even try?

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm,now I will just say goodbye.
Goodbye...

Posted By Zul at 12:46 PM