Neonixehertz.

26.5.07

Imran is sick!
Haha..
So I was just spending time using my laptop when suddenly my home phone rang.
Me:Hello.
The person over on the phone:Hello,may I speak to Zulraihan? (Voice sounds like Imran's)
Me:Ya,this is zul,is that you Imran?
The person: Ya..(so now you know its Imran)..Hey dude,I came out with something cool and I want you to hear it.
Me:Go msn ar..haha.I listen thru voice convo.
Imran:I dont have the mic la..Haha.
Me:Haha,okok let me hear it on the phone.
*After hearing all the stuff*
Me:Hey,thats cool shit.Dont throw it away man!
Imran:Haha,alright.I'm going to call Hafiz now to let him hear as well.
Me:Haha,alright alright.

So he called just to let me hear what he had came out with.LoLs,a little bit nuts but that shows how passionate he is..thanks bro.Rock on man..He was actually spending time playing guitar and just doodling stuff i guess.Then after like 10 minutes,I called him back to asked him to play it again.He said that he had came out with it out of boredom and partly because he was sick of school and stuff.Haha,so it came with flow I guess..We talked for some time and we developed his idea into a longer piece.At first he thought that just sounded cool to be part of a song but I said its so much nicer for a riff.So we used that as a riff and somehow I tried to help out to continue and turns out we came out with riff for the verse and bridge part connecting the verse and chorus.

I'm still thinking of the intro..but I told him that since his idea was kinda of a slow material,maybe the song would go slow after all..and we might just throw in some crazy shit in the interval or until the end of the song..why not right? Yeah anyway,thinking about it,we still have one riff that is left unused for now..Some emo-sounding tabs that I have added a little drums and bass which Nadiah had created for us (thanks girl!) but I have yet to hear that.But the trouble is,Imran keeps coming out with a very SHORT part.Haha..and when we talked on the phone,he finally understands that it needs to be longer..so I could think of what/how the drums would sound like.Its usually like that..riff as the backbone of the song..add in the bass and stuff and lastly the drums is left to fit in.Well at least I got some things going on in my mind after I made his new idea to be a longer piece..

And if you're asking me why are we so slow in our songs..please ask the 2 guitarists.
Hehe..
I'm need something to work on man!
Imran,you better make time for this one.Honestly,that shit sounds great.

Posted By Zul at 4:22 AM

23.5.07

Hey yo.
Its been very long since this place is last updated.
I think Neonixehertz is dead.
Its been ages since we last went jamming.
I'm sick of the same old shit.I don't mind playing other songs from Metallica..but preferably other songs from other bands. I'm becoming useless in my skills(like as if i had some),not forgetting the fact that I still dont know how to hold a drumstick and thats like from the very beginning of Neonixehertz.Honestly right now,I'm kinda inspired to play fast rolls and double pedals but sadly,I dont have a drumset and we dont really go jamming anymore.So that basically means,I cant try anything.For me,its okay if you lack of skill..if your drumming sounds nice,then thats what really matters.I'm not saying this as an excuse for me.. there's a difference there.I have NO skill and my opinion is emphasising on LACK of skill.

Whatever la ha..Alright,I'll try to refrain from using as many vulgarities as possible.

I dont know how are your lives going on Bros (Imran & Hafiz)..well for me,I'm thankful to Allah for my balanced life right now.I'm experiencing both ups and downs right now..the ups is making me really happy and overjoyed..Alhamdulillah..
and the downs are really super fucktup..Astaufirghullah..
Haha..since when I've learnt to speak in that manner..LoLs,anyways,its not that I'm trying to attract attention by saying all that..it just comes to my next point that I wanna share.

About teenagers like us and the idea of being in a relationship.
Want to be in a relationship? Thats fine,your fucking problem and business..but I think its becoming stupid..Wait.It is stupid,not becoming..yeah so,I believe IT IS stupid when your relationship is turning into a source of problem.Reason for me to mention this is because this has been a common sight recently..and I really really think that you are dumb. And these people,who are having problems with their relationship,are going around and like "LEAVE ME ALONE.MY LIFE IS IN A MESS RIGHT NOW!YOU DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL!" Hah! Well Fucktard,congratulations.You have just been fucked-tup by your relationship. Why am I saying all this? What's the point of being in a relationship? Well I cant possibly explain here because everyone has their own opinion but lets be frank. In a relationship,people basically:
- wants to love someone
- wants to be loved
- what else? Its basically your source of happiness in life isnt it?

But what I see nowadays is that relationships are becoming a source of problem in life.And all I can see is that in ends terribly;people hating one another and becoming selfish.Sure,yup..I do believe that conflicts make a relationship stronger when then outcome is good..but if that conflict is just giving you the worst time of your life,then whats the point? Hating one another like childish freaks and becoming selfish trying to tell the whole world that your life is fucktup just because of your relationship.Think again,your "problem" is nothing and pathetic to those having real problems in life such as famliy conflict,financial,etc.Maybe you need to learn to appreciate the gift of having the chance to live from God.But again,I do believe strongly that a relationship doesnt really need major conflicts just to be stronger.I have seen couples,whether married or not,living in harmony.There's no need for fights and crap stuff here and there.Minor disarguements do happen and its resolved in calm and understanding-one-another manner.Like,if you love one another already,why would you want to fight anyway?When its really love,although your partner may have done something wrong,you are willing to forgive them or maybe you dont even care at all because the love for that person immediately turns into forgiveness.If your partner is really the ONE,he/she wont give you hell..because they love and cherish you very much.They cant bear to see you in any form of difficulty and if they do,they would want to go through it TOGETHER with you.Now honestly,doesnt that sound nicer?

Again,if you're asking me what the fuck is my point of saying all this..its because I do really see alot of people change because of stupid things like these.And some just happen to be my friends..I dont even know if they view me as a friend..cos I'm not as cool and as them,bla3..I need not go into extra details for that.

Anyway before I end,I would like to thank..
- Roy [For being a beaver,haha..,you should be glad that i placed you top of list.=/]
- Matthew [Cool Bro,chill guy..]
- Mark [Accessory Boy.Err,Actually i wanted to say more to Happy Birthday.Haha]
- Haziq [Cheerleader boy.. -.-]
- Ruslan [Crazy Bro,Gerek fella..Kaistor,Kaistor!(Eh!Eh!)]
- Sab [Sab giler!!! Hahaha]
- Claudine [Forget the jerk la..Stay happy!Dont get horny..Haha!,joking!]
- Emilla [Aww sister,dont be sad la..Got problem can talk to me aite!Stay happy as well.]
- Bee Siang/Xiang. [Sorry if i spelt your name wrongly.Stop being emo la..Siao char bo.LOL!]
- And to those anyone out there who I've missed out for all the good times. (x

Thanks to..
- Hafiz
- Khairul
- Seth
For the auditions.

Alright,thats all.
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Posted By Zul at 11:45 PM

8.5.07

Hey..
I got a shitload to talk here.
But this is to clear things up.
Roy Chua,I'm not blaming you for anything.I'm just trying to explain.

It all started when...
Roy: Going kaistor's lunch outing tmr?
Me: No? I don't know there's lunch tmr?
Roy: Don't know? Its all over a few GLs' and freshies's msn pm..
Me: Oh sorry,I don't bother to see.If they want me to come,they should have told me.
Roy: lol,you vip meh? You oso not best freshie..
Me: Ya so? I don't know there's outing cos I was never informed..
Roy: Haha,see lah..you not popular thats why
Me: I want to be popular for what sia.Ppl see my face they don't want friend me already.

Okay,lets end there since the rest is just crap.But before I say ANYthing,my MAIN and WHOLE point of this post is; What YOU see may NOT be what I see.
I repeat: What you see may not be what I see.
Honestly,I don't mind being popular BUT for reasonable things such as me being friendly and outgoing and not because of looks(like as if i have,its just an example),I am trendy and cool or whatsoever fuck.Most of today's youth are popular mainly for that kind of reasons.I observed this as I grow up over the years..c'mon its obvious.So anyway,I want to point out a few things from that simple convo I had with Roy.

First of all,I am NOT a vip NOR the best freshie but I strongly believe that the organizer,if he/she wishes to have most of the Kaistorians to be at the lunch outing,then its they themselves who will have to go around and inform others.AT LEAST have the initiative to do so and not just later pointing fingers to people who weren't there thinking that they're anti-social for not being at the outing.Why am I saying this?I'm not trying to be a hero or ask anyone to thank me for my effort but I still remember the time where Haziq and me were rushing our ass off trying to complete that super long list of email addresses of Kaistorians from F.O.C which was later to be sent to everyone.Think again,why did I even bother to do such a thing although I was already super tired from the camp?Its because I wanted as many people as possible to know everyone in the whole Kaistor empire.Its because I had the thought of it and I wanted to.So,to achieve my goal,I made an effort and I must say I am very happy with the outcome of it.Others' and mine contacts were like booming due to non-stop adding of other freshies' email addresses.Special thanks to Haziq for helping me out alot.This is what i meant by what you see may not be what I see.You may think that I'm ignorant but I have a life,a busy one,and I may not have the time to really go around and ask others what's happening.

Secondly,the "I don't bother part".Honestly,I love Kaistor very much.Yes I do.And honestly,I do hate some people in Kaistor.Let me be VERY STRAIGHTFORWARD here.I used to be enthu about Kaistor but because of the "lunch" outing at Olio at City Hall,I had this thought and feeling of not bothering about Kaistor that much anymore.The thing that makes me even more sad is that the people who caused the mess are the seniors and just because they're seniors and the majority,doesn't mean you need not respect your juniors/freshies and the minorities.The story:Some bunch of seniors trying to organize an empire lunch outing but one BIG mistake:making decisions without the opinion/knowledge/approval of others.Some sense of communication you got there fellow senior.Its just like as if you're going out on a normal lunch with your clique while asking along a group of 100 people to join you guys.Not being racists here..since the majority was chinese,they really forgotten about the non-chinese and so have reserved a place at a non-halal restaurant.That's okay..its fine..still can take it.So we,the non-chinese,told them we'll be eating at some other place and meet them later after our meals.We got a green light for that.So they went off first and around 10 minutes after that,they called us asking us why is there a large number of chinese people following the non-chinese people which was only 4 at that time.First reaction: What the fuck?! These people are sensitive. How can they say that? Its like as if they're saying that only 4 chinese can follow the 4 non-chinese.And of course the chinese people replied to them asking why can't they follow us since we are their friends as well and doesnt that sound a little racist? In the end,we gave them face and went there for their sake so that they could shut the bloody mouth up.Lucky for them,we're used to fasting and I really pity one of my GLs.The place was non-halal but she was terribly hungry and couldn't resist from watching others eating and so she was gobbling up all the halal stuff like fruits and chocolate.About the amount of food and cost,I better not say it because it was a TOTAL rip-off and will just give bad memories to some people.Again,this is what I meant by what you see may not be what I see.In their eyes,they thought they were right to make that kind of decisions without thinking of what might happen next but in the eyes of others,we view them as immature elders,yup,immature elders who think they're always right and are TOO sensitive.

Last but not least..Roy said I am not that popular among Kaistorians.True,I am not that popular..but is it because I don't mix much with Kaistorians? I told Roy..its been almost a month since F.O.C and Kaistor is STILL having outings almost every week.I was wondering,what the hell is wrong with these people?Yes okay I know you love Kaistor,so do I!But if this carries on and on and on,it just shows you are not moving on in life.C'mon..move on!I also told Roy that if your ring of contacts is just within Kaistor,then I guess I'm better at socialising because I make friends with everyone,not just people from Kaistor.I rather spend time going around meeting new people rather than just being in a small group for the whole 3 years or more of your poly life.So AGAIN,what you see may not be what I see. You may think that I don't bother going to outings and gatherings..but whats the point if you keep seeing the same people for each and every one of the gatherings and outings? Does that make you sound more friendly? Does that make you more popular? Yeah,perhaps..but only popular in Kaistor and not TP.

My final point.What's the purpose of saying all that? Again and again..what you see may not be what I see. You may think I'm some ignorant fucktard who doesnt gives a damn about this and that but the truth is I have thoughts running here and there.I learn alot of things through observing and I think alot about life.BUT..I may also not able to see what you see..but honestly,i wish to rephrase that. BUT..I may not able to see clearly what you see..because honestly,I do take the time to put myself in others' shoes and think why do they think in that way..I do.

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Posted By Zul at 11:50 PM