Neonixehertz.

30.3.08

No time.
No money.
How to jam.
Tsk.
i must,MUST,go jamming by this week.
Okay,
will squeeze in some time.
will find money somewhere/somehow.
Hafiz and Imran,
Please find some new songs to learn..
Or if there's any song that you guys want to try out.

Imran got his metalzone-like pedals.
Or is it metalzone?
Haha,good for ya dude.

i had a great dream.
i dreamt of playing Iron Cobra Pedals (DOUBLE BASS..SHITCAKE) which were light as fuck.
i didnt play much but trying out fast double pedals like dragonforce was enough.
i fucking hate swee lee pedals..as heavy as fuck bcz of low-lying mallots.
Like what Imran further explained my physics,
Further distance = More force.Fuck,like that how to play fast,motherfucker.
But its okay,i miss Iron Cobra Pedals..only played once so far..
Good enough.. (:
Speaking of which..
i watched/listened to this dragonforce song on Hadi-Kunji's blog.
Honestly,this is the first dragonforce song that i can actually listen to and enjoy it.
All the previous songs that i tried listening to,within a minute,i'll get a headache bcz of the satanic vox and drums.

But this one..is just my perfect type of metal.
Anyway,thats all.

A vid of the song..a shortened version of the song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0jgrCKhxE1s

Posted By Zul at 11:14 PM

22.3.08

Happy 18th to Hafiz.
13 more days for Imran.
And the band.

Heard Imran got some new equipment.
Bass and marshall amp?
And he might be getting a pedal as well.

Cool shit ha i guess.
Imran's preparing for his songfest.
All the best dude.
Little bit of a sidetrack..
Last week it was my right knee and after a week of recovering..
Its my left knee now. Aiyah..!!
And now i have trouble double-pedaling.
Aiyah..!!
Actually there's more,haha!
Hopefully i'll heal by the next time we jam.

Okay thats all, so..
Happy birthday to Hafiz.
Happy playing/auditioning and good luck to Imran.
Happy recovering to me.
\m/

Posted By Zul at 9:36 PM

19.3.08

At first i thought this was the problem.
And then,thought that was the problem instead.
Then this.Then that.
Then this.
Then that.
In the end,i found out its just me.

Now i understand.
Between
Being a better person..
And..
Liking who and what you are..

i guess i think and cared too much about unnecessary stuff.
Thankful that a few are trying to help me by moving on.
There's no such thing as over-appreciate.
i am just able to appreciate things better.
Which is good for me because i used to not appreciate even the most simplest things.
But i found out that as i 'moved on',
i felt totally lost.
i dont feel like i'm myself anymore.
i dont feel good,i feel uncomfortable.
Start to act and behave all different and weird.
But basically on this path,practically,
i'm actually moving towards making life better.
Of course i wish to make my life better but the things i do..
are just AGAINST my VERY FUNDAMENTAL BASIC principles.

In the end,
i realized that staying here is the best option for me.
After all this confusion,
i choose to stay.
i feel much more better here.
i feel good,i feel happy.
i feel like i'm really being myself again.
And it was from HERE that i chose the path of my life.
It was from HERE that i developed my VERY FUNDAMENTAL BASIC principles.
The things to lead a happy simple life.
And anyway,it doesnt hurt anyone..
It does,but to only ONE person.(and i will not mention who)
So yah,although sometimes it sucks being here,
i still feel happiness..
Which also comes when i see others happy.

So yah,
Its not that i dont want to move on.
I guess and see that staying is the best option for me.
This is who i am..this is where i belong.
Only time will tell if things change..
So please,accept me for who i am..like how i accept for who you are.
If you dont,i cant help you and thats a choice i leave it to you.

Posted By Zul at 1:57 AM

15.3.08

First of all,
We would like to thank Allah,
For giving us the time and opportunity to jam after so long.
Imran in the midst of his exam.
Hafiz and me,exams done for and got results..haha.

Imran kinda sketchy(if thats how you spell it) but he still managed to play good.No,play well.
i must say Hafiz still has his mojo on guitars..just that i guess he hasnt been singing alot.
And expected,i suck,at first.Heh.
Took awhile to get used to the drums and after awhile,managed to pull through.
Happy that i still got some of my stuff..along with a couple new things.
Hopefully we can get started on writing songs.
Or at least,just the experience.
Why oh why are we missing a bassist..

It was a great session.
We played..
Fade To Black,Master of Puppets,Creeping Death,Four Horsemen,Enter Sandman,Nothing Else Matters,All The Small Things,First Date,99 red balloons,(this space is to mention all the songs that are not mentioned) and..a few random Slipknot stuff.
But i think the highlight was Nothing Else Matters.
It sounded great man..orgasmic.
That was like the last song we played serious..
After that came the crap,lame,bullshit or whatever stuff that is associated with pointlessness and nonsense..
NxHz. tradition..

Life's good for us.
All the best Imran.
Hafiz,wait for one more week.
To Hafiz's ma'am,Happy 18th birthday.
Hope to jam soon again since we're gonna be all free.
And hopefully and my knee heals/recovers very soon..
Thats all.
\m/

Nothing Else Matters
So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Posted By Zul at 2:54 AM

8.3.08

"..i think i am crazy..
..because i keep doing things that's almost impossible to be done.."

Yes,
i ran across the road just to catch the bus.
i didnt had enough sleep.
My bed and pillows was all that i could think of.
Haha,dammit.

Had a good rest and went riding.
Late night till sunrise.
Too bad i cant carry on with them,got smth else on.
Salah kau sendiri
Even if my father was the owner of Nissan for sg,
Or my family member gonna buy some expensive car,
i wont tell the whole world.
Your riding isnt any better and therefore,
You no need a tip-top bike.
Tgk mcm aku,setup tk kecoh pe.
Think you're trendy?
Not saying you're some fucktup fella,
But because of your lies,you make others think you're a hypocrite and hate you.
Blame yourself for the crappy stories you tell.
Blame yourself for owe-ing people money.
Blame yourself for not carrying out deals with others properly.
Blame yourself for PAITAO-ing.
Bottomeline,blame yourself.
Nevertheless,i once again had one of the best moments in my life.
16 riders,16 bikes,4 spots,endless photo-taking,crappy jokes along with nonsensical behavior.
Ride bmx.

Anyway,
i'm getting sick of all this shit.
i know its hard to do this.
i dont care.
i dont give a damn.
Gonna do something about this.
Its worth a try.
And YOU know that once i start trying,
* **** **** ** ******,like a ************.
So YOU better watch out.
i WILL make sure things get better,at least.
Not for me, but for the rest..
Seeing them happy,is all i want.

Hope that we gonna go jamming soon.
Its been a long time.
i'm starting to appreciate other aspects of music.
And with that,quite often i mix them with metal.
Just like how others have done it.
Most of the time,it turns out to be a masterpiece.
i must say i deproved alot.
i dont know how bad i am right now..
But i just know i am,LOL.

Results coming out soon.
Good luck and all the best everyone.
Thats all for now.
For whom the bell tolls, time marches on..
\m/

"..but apart from that on actual fact,
i know i am crazy.."

Posted By Zul at 7:06 AM