Neonixehertz.

28.6.07

I'd just like to start by saying that I updated the blog with another post below this one, so check it out.

The reason for this post is that I'm thinking of trying it out...

Not so long ago during ODAC, one of my friends talked to me about her ideal guy. She said, "it's you..."

Alright, just kidding :)

Anyway, what she really mentioned was about how he would be like, and she described how so very committed she would be to him once they got together...

Wait a sec. This got me thinking...I used to have the same idea of how a relationship, at this particular teenage stage, should be like. Last time I thought well, if both the guy and the girl were extremely sure they liked each other for who each of them really are, they could go steady.

And yeahh, it would require commitment to get into a relationship...but what if I didn't want to be committed? 'Cause the truth is you never know who you'd meet in future and placing your all your hopes on one person, so early in life is just ridiculous. Even if all goes well, what if you meet someone new, start to like him/her and feel sort of split between him/her and old boyfriend/girlfriend?

I mean the possibilities of who you end up with are endless. You could meet someone new in any point of your life, even overseas. You could even split up with your old girlfriend and meet her again 10 years later and, with changed/matured personalities, end up dating each other all the way to marriage. Hey, you could even end up marrying someone you used to hate/argue with! Well you get the idea.

So anyway, let's say I'm interested in a girl and she's interested in me and I date her, but can I do it without getting into a relationship...could I do it for fun? Could we just like each other to some extent but stay as friends? It could work out between us but the thing is, I wanna keep my options open. I think that's what dating is supposed to be like but I'm not certain if that's how other people see it or if they'd agree with me. There probably are people who do this but most of the time when I see couples, they're the sort that wanna give "the rest of their life together" a try.

For my case, I just wanna get to know the person and have fun. Really. Somehow I think it'd be cool to have this kinda non-serious relationship. At the same time both she and I could choose to date other people and neither of us have to hide it. Instead of a committed girlfriend, think of it as "good friend with some aspect of romance". You could call it a "dating" status, though my idea of it is less serious.

So I think my problem now is, how do I explain that to a girl? I have a feeling she might end up feeling confused. I'm not trying to be a playboy here, my point is that one should not be afraid of trying it out with new people.

For this reason I think it's disgusting how I get those chain-letters that tell you to keep loving your boyfriend/girlfriend and don't ever let him/her go. What made you jump to the conclusion that you're gonna spend the rest of your life with that girlfriend in the first place? Don't you wanna get to know more people before making a final decision? Not letting go is being selfish. Not only that, the more people you've dated, the better you know about your own preferences. Besides, people change.

I don't mind if people feel bad after breaking up, what I do mind is these e-mails which give horrible advice. Don't let him/her go? Who are you kidding? This is like deceiving the dear youth to believe that it's bad to break up and you should always try to stay in you relationship. Someone really heartbroken must have typed those dumb letters. Worse still, someone without any experiance.

I sure hope the general view is not like those in the chain-letters. Maybe I could propose this as a debate-topic. In the meantime, wish me luck :p

Posted By Imran at 8:18 AM

Hellow freaks.

Haha. Just feel like saying that, no idea why. The font looks suitable too. Anywayz, it feels good now that the JCTs (June Common Tests) are over. You know how random words pop up in your head after studying so much? That's kind of like how I feel now.

Like 2 days ago, the first thing in my head when I woke up was "H2O molecules...Oxygen...tetrahedral...hydrogen bonding...more dense..." Usually I think "Alhamdulillah" when I wake up, but I guess revision was just stuck in my head. There was another time my brother was playing the song Vacant by Dream Theater on the com, and the first thought that struck my mind was "vacant orbital". Well you catch my drift, and this was just chemistry.

Before my exams started 4 days ago, my bro and I went to send the PS2 for repairs. Apparently there are 2 lenses inside the console, one for reading normal discs and one for reading DVD format discs, which are mostly PS2. The DVD lens wears out pretty fast, takes about 1-2 years for it to wear out depending on how much you play. Since it spoiled, my bro and I had to stick to our olde PSone games, without memory cards...which means we can't save games.

This is the 2nd or 3rd time it happened to my PS2 (I can't remember) and I thought repairs would take around 3 days...turns out it'll take at least 3 WEEKS. Now I'm left PS2-less and gosh, I feel so empty inside. Haha. Video games were a big part of my life, though I hardly got time to play since sec 2.

I know it sounds silly being "emotional" over a gaming console but you've got to understand, video games are one of my greatest interests and it's my favourite thing to do (or play) at home when I've got free time, other than guitar and stuff. I'm not as updated about them as I used to be, but it still remains as my one of my passions.

Speaking of guitar, haven't come up with anything great for the song yet but some ideas are slowly oozing in. They come in small amounts and the thing is I'm not exactly sure how to put them together, or if I should put them together in the first place. Sorry Han, looks like this is gonna take quite a while.

Currently relistened to Immortal's In my Kingdom Cold. The guitar riffs sound sinister and man, I love evil-sounding guitar riffs! Not quite sure if I like the drummer's constant drumming technique though, and the vocals are ok, but some of his groans, grunts and growls don't appeal to me.

Well that's all, folks. Bored at home and wanting to go out before school reopens...

Posted By Imran at 7:39 AM

23.6.07

Yo.
Havent been jamming so far.
Imran gonna have exams,good luck dude.
Last time we jammed,I don't know..
Was it horrible?
Haha..I cant play Fade To Black anymore..
And sure Fu*k,it used to be our best song.
Even Hafiz said "Haha,kene main fade to black balik sia.."
Which means we need to play/train on that song again..

Anyway,
My life with PhreakFrendz sure is good.best.Enjoyable.Happy to the max la.Nothing bad about it. =D
PhreakFrendz is my riding crew la..formerly named 1852..bla3.
Just got home from riding..did a couple of stuff today/yesterday.
Tried doing opposite 180,and now my arms feel like they're falling off.
What if my arms were to feel that way due to excessive drumming.Hah..LoLs.

And to Claudine And Emilla;
YES.My ride/bike IS my girlfriend (I don't know if its a guy or girl).Until I find a real girlfriend (I don't know if it gonna happen or not la ha),my bike IS my girlfriend.I LOVE my bike.Because of my bike and bmx itself,I learnt alot about life.You can read all about it on my friendster profile.Its too long to be posted here.And you 2 should be thankful I sacrifised the love for my bike for the 2 of you that night on the phone.(No la joking only,not expecting a big thanks or anything.Haha..really).We dont talk on the phone all the time and not much and I can always ride my bike some other time..So yeah,anything for friends. (=

Alright thats it.
And I wanna leave you people with some riddles.You can try to answer or personally get the answers from me.
- Why is seawater salty?
- Of all monkeys(and their relatives),which are the kinds that knows how to swim?

\mm/

Posted By Zul at 3:39 AM

14.6.07

Hey..
The name's of this post is called "Fuck."
Its almost 5 in the morning and i don't know whether to fucking sleep or not.
Update on Neonixehertz,
Huh? again? sry la,no progression.yep.NOTHING.
Fuck.
But nvm la..things happen for a reason..and its because Hafiz has no amps and Imran is forever busy.His exams are coming anyway so good luck bro.
Plan was to go jamming on friday but Hafiz suddenly asked if we wanna jam later after 4 or should i better say after Imran's class.
Told him sure but I have no money at all..and he went like damn...Haha,sry bro,like you said,you too haven't pay me back..LoLs,we'll see how..
And if we were to jam,i can imagine Imran in uniform(again) jamming.We're all in home clothes and he's like in uniform.I'm not saying you whatsoever Imran..but urgh!What the fuck,know what i'm trying to say?
Yeah so again,
Fuck.

Things' been a roller coaster.Thanks ALOT to Claudine,Emilla and Matthew for those good times in the last couple of days..I really dont have anything bad to say about it because its just good/nice!From the orchard outing to bugis..From Matthew and Emilla showing their true colors and Claudine's mind being corrupted due to the 2 of you to chilling at the suntec fountain..You guys are great.. (x ..i cant imagine how big is my thanks to you guys.

And Roy,fuck you a thousand times.I appreciate the fact that you want to be friends with me but you're treating me like a fucking faggot.I'm really disappointed in you.Although you known me for 3 years but it seems like you think I'm as childish as what you can be.I know you fucking love habbo but I dont,although i play it almost everyday.I'm not as enthu as you are.You may have friends like Tyler and Rayman who are really freaks in that game but I'm so sorry,I am NOT like them.So stop treating me like as if I'm into everything in that stupid game.I think you well know you are irritating and its okay if you dont want to change that part.But you're now old enough and i expect you to change a little,as in UP IN THE BRAINS..I dont wanna be fucking throwing chairs at you anymore cos I want to treat you with respect as well..and i really WISH i could.
Bottomline,
FUCK.

Fuck la,its not good saying fuck alot of times.But what to do..
Some people are just people.
I try to be nice they say I'm crazy because i used to be bad..
When sometimes I'm being nice to people over time,they step over my head..
(Roy,although you are one,there are more people who's worse than you now)
Its okay,I have this thing called "Patience" in me and you cant imagine the amount of it.
Sorry guys,i'm jz tryna let my anger off..
Still finding a healthy way to get rid of anger.
You dont wanna know or experience how does it feel like to be in between Anger and Patience..
Wait,i'm not really suppose to talk abt personal stuff on this blog,
but why does it seems i'm like the only one who's using it..
Maybe I might be the band's spokesman one day with my C6 English..oh lols.
Thats all the shiat i guess and before I end..

神は私の夢の女の子である私に言う。

Posted By Zul at 4:57 AM