Neonixehertz.

19.3.08

At first i thought this was the problem.
And then,thought that was the problem instead.
Then this.Then that.
Then this.
Then that.
In the end,i found out its just me.

Now i understand.
Between
Being a better person..
And..
Liking who and what you are..

i guess i think and cared too much about unnecessary stuff.
Thankful that a few are trying to help me by moving on.
There's no such thing as over-appreciate.
i am just able to appreciate things better.
Which is good for me because i used to not appreciate even the most simplest things.
But i found out that as i 'moved on',
i felt totally lost.
i dont feel like i'm myself anymore.
i dont feel good,i feel uncomfortable.
Start to act and behave all different and weird.
But basically on this path,practically,
i'm actually moving towards making life better.
Of course i wish to make my life better but the things i do..
are just AGAINST my VERY FUNDAMENTAL BASIC principles.

In the end,
i realized that staying here is the best option for me.
After all this confusion,
i choose to stay.
i feel much more better here.
i feel good,i feel happy.
i feel like i'm really being myself again.
And it was from HERE that i chose the path of my life.
It was from HERE that i developed my VERY FUNDAMENTAL BASIC principles.
The things to lead a happy simple life.
And anyway,it doesnt hurt anyone..
It does,but to only ONE person.(and i will not mention who)
So yah,although sometimes it sucks being here,
i still feel happiness..
Which also comes when i see others happy.

So yah,
Its not that i dont want to move on.
I guess and see that staying is the best option for me.
This is who i am..this is where i belong.
Only time will tell if things change..
So please,accept me for who i am..like how i accept for who you are.
If you dont,i cant help you and thats a choice i leave it to you.

Posted By Zul at 1:57 AM