Neonixehertz.

1.1.08

Happy New Year to everyone.
May 2008 be a better year for all.

2007..
i dont know about others.
For me gladly,its a pretty good year.
Started out quite shitty..
Until somewhere March or April.
Poly really changed my life,alot.
i know alot of these changes and stuff will come in/along the way.
But never did i know that it would mean so much and turn out this/that way.
i'm glad that i have made the right choice when i was 12.
And that is to be in Temasek Poly.
i feel good and great being in this school.
With all the things/events,studies at a very nice pace,friends that i've made.
i hope to feel the same way and even better.
i learnt alot of things.
Too many i saw.
Too many i heard.
Too many i thought.
Too many i realized.
Too many to mention.
But it was never too much to be understood.
Because although i've learnt alot,i know there's still alot more to learn.

But what does breathing for almost 18 years mean,
If you cant do anything about it?
i remain patient and quiet..but till how long if there's no difference?
Why are you so fucking hard on yourself,others and things?
i still don't understand..
Wouldnt it be better if we sit down and talk everything out.
Things would end up better.
You people just wont give a moment or chance for me to speak up.
Why? Why the fuck is it that way?
Just because i'm the youngest and all of you think,
That i dont know a single fucking thing?!
There's a malay saying..
"Besar jangan disangka bapak,kecik jangan disangka anak"
Which basically means dont think that adults are always right.
Young people do have brains and able to think.
But i still dont get the chance to prove myself.
i may have been childish and stupid when i was young.
Often bullied anyway.
But fuck la xia,i'm all grown up.
i can fucking think.
Why the fuck are you people still giving me the same treatment and shit?
......................
Hmm..its okay.i'll stay calm and patient.
You people dont even give a thought about how the fuck i feel as a child.
A child who is very determined and has alot of hopes.
Only to find his determination and and hopes shattered.
All you want is your youngsters to understand you.
Its okay..i'm just the tiny voices in this whole thing.
Maybe you all cant even hear them.
Its alright..as long as i'm still alive,
i wont give up. i dont quit that easily.
You have yet to know what i got and made of.
i dont and wont give a fuck about my feelings.
i'll suffer if i have to. Like i said,i wont give up.
Because when i got what i wanted,it shows that you lost.
Only then,can i rest in peace.
You got my word,bitch.

Happy New Year my friends.
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Posted By Zul at 1:34 PM