Neonixehertz.

14.12.07

Its not my fault its like this.
Well,maybe it is.It has always been my fault isn't it?
It gives you one strong and exact reason to call me 'Pathetic'.
Like i said a thousand times before,it doesn't matter at all.
Because i'm stupid that's why.
Maybe you might even be saying to yourself "Who the FUCK is he?"
At times,i realized that i may be trying too hard to please others around me.
Why don't i just be myself? Why give a fuck if they don't like who you really are?
They either have 2 choices then.Accept the fact i'm like that or hate me.
Like i said a thousand times before,there's no use in me being nice.
However thinking about it again,it was my intention all along to be a better person.
Makes me wonder if characteristic,attitude and personality REALLY matters.
Of course i know and believe it does.
But they are not acting that way when it ALL comes out from their mouth in the first place.
Nothing surprising..
Like i said a thousand times before,whatever that makes you happy.
Not being pessimistic but..
IF only you knew the reason..
The reason why i took this path..
The path that really opens up your mind..
The mind to think and understand..
The understanding that opens up your eyes..
The eyes that lets you see to make your choices..
The choices that will either give you joy and peace or a living hell in/to your heart..
The heart to feel and live as a human..
Wait,i don't even have feelings.Like i said a thousand times before,i'm heartless.
Nevertheless,life has to go on.
Don't worry about me,i'm fine all along and happy always.
But again,IF only you knew..
IF only..

BUT,
That was 1679 days and every day of it ago.
Today,i made my decision.
Whatever that choice is,NEVER will i look back.
Because life's simple;you make choices and you don't look back.
Thats how you live without or with the least regrets.
And be confident of yourself.
So what you waiting for?
Here we go!
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Posted By Zul at 11:57 PM