Neonixehertz.

27.11.07

"Go learn style your hair.."
Haha.Thanks emilla/sis.
But you know me;i dont really care about how i look. i have my reasons..
And like i said countless times, i'm ugly..i know.lols.
But again,that dont matter to me.
Personality and character-wise,that matters ALOT to me.
Frankly,theres no reason for me to dress up or look nice.

Its been some time.
i dont know,is it long ago?Its like nothing to me.
Because it seems like as if theres no difference.
Alot has happened since then..
i believe that was the last time.
Whatever.Like i said,there's no difference isnt it.
i'm beginning to realise that,
It actually has taken it's shit on me.
But trust me,its so far behind that its lost already.
i didnt bother to care..i did.But in the end..its nothing.
Thing is,because of it,i..i dont know.
Because of it,alot has changed.
Because of it,everything's left hanging;unanswered.
Because of it,theres fear,uncertainty and shit everywhere.
It just somehow carry on as memory..
When its not suppose to.
i have no reason AT ALL to tell whether is it good or bad.
i hope i have made you smile or laugh at least ONCE.
And i hope you're smiling and laughing for your happy life now.
Not that i am not happy with my life.
In fact,i am.i just want to be thankful to Allah.
But i dont know if this is a curse/"curse" or whatsoever..
Only Allah knows..and i pray to Him for life to better for others..
And myself.

Anyway,i just realized that term test is the week after next.
Thakloy,Pab-Butz,Pokay-Wak,Wafadakas..
i've been missing alot.What the hell of an attitude i'm having..
i shall change starting today,right now.
On time for lessons and study since test is coming.
Not forgetting to be attentive in class instead of being in lalaland and snoozing on Earth.
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Its really testing me.
Going nuts,crazy and insane.
Best way to describe: 100% optimism pulled down by 99% negativity.
Its okay.
"..you just have to believe in yourself.."
i will never forget those words.
Thank you,beloved sec 2 form teacher.Haha!
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LASTLY,
i'm in love with Iron Maiden's Hallowed Be Thy Name.
And Cradle of Filth's cover of the song.
If only i can scream like that.. \m/
Too bad,i'm on the drums and not vox.
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Posted By Zul at 11:26 PM