Neonixehertz.

8.5.07

Hey..
I got a shitload to talk here.
But this is to clear things up.
Roy Chua,I'm not blaming you for anything.I'm just trying to explain.

It all started when...
Roy: Going kaistor's lunch outing tmr?
Me: No? I don't know there's lunch tmr?
Roy: Don't know? Its all over a few GLs' and freshies's msn pm..
Me: Oh sorry,I don't bother to see.If they want me to come,they should have told me.
Roy: lol,you vip meh? You oso not best freshie..
Me: Ya so? I don't know there's outing cos I was never informed..
Roy: Haha,see lah..you not popular thats why
Me: I want to be popular for what sia.Ppl see my face they don't want friend me already.

Okay,lets end there since the rest is just crap.But before I say ANYthing,my MAIN and WHOLE point of this post is; What YOU see may NOT be what I see.
I repeat: What you see may not be what I see.
Honestly,I don't mind being popular BUT for reasonable things such as me being friendly and outgoing and not because of looks(like as if i have,its just an example),I am trendy and cool or whatsoever fuck.Most of today's youth are popular mainly for that kind of reasons.I observed this as I grow up over the years..c'mon its obvious.So anyway,I want to point out a few things from that simple convo I had with Roy.

First of all,I am NOT a vip NOR the best freshie but I strongly believe that the organizer,if he/she wishes to have most of the Kaistorians to be at the lunch outing,then its they themselves who will have to go around and inform others.AT LEAST have the initiative to do so and not just later pointing fingers to people who weren't there thinking that they're anti-social for not being at the outing.Why am I saying this?I'm not trying to be a hero or ask anyone to thank me for my effort but I still remember the time where Haziq and me were rushing our ass off trying to complete that super long list of email addresses of Kaistorians from F.O.C which was later to be sent to everyone.Think again,why did I even bother to do such a thing although I was already super tired from the camp?Its because I wanted as many people as possible to know everyone in the whole Kaistor empire.Its because I had the thought of it and I wanted to.So,to achieve my goal,I made an effort and I must say I am very happy with the outcome of it.Others' and mine contacts were like booming due to non-stop adding of other freshies' email addresses.Special thanks to Haziq for helping me out alot.This is what i meant by what you see may not be what I see.You may think that I'm ignorant but I have a life,a busy one,and I may not have the time to really go around and ask others what's happening.

Secondly,the "I don't bother part".Honestly,I love Kaistor very much.Yes I do.And honestly,I do hate some people in Kaistor.Let me be VERY STRAIGHTFORWARD here.I used to be enthu about Kaistor but because of the "lunch" outing at Olio at City Hall,I had this thought and feeling of not bothering about Kaistor that much anymore.The thing that makes me even more sad is that the people who caused the mess are the seniors and just because they're seniors and the majority,doesn't mean you need not respect your juniors/freshies and the minorities.The story:Some bunch of seniors trying to organize an empire lunch outing but one BIG mistake:making decisions without the opinion/knowledge/approval of others.Some sense of communication you got there fellow senior.Its just like as if you're going out on a normal lunch with your clique while asking along a group of 100 people to join you guys.Not being racists here..since the majority was chinese,they really forgotten about the non-chinese and so have reserved a place at a non-halal restaurant.That's okay..its fine..still can take it.So we,the non-chinese,told them we'll be eating at some other place and meet them later after our meals.We got a green light for that.So they went off first and around 10 minutes after that,they called us asking us why is there a large number of chinese people following the non-chinese people which was only 4 at that time.First reaction: What the fuck?! These people are sensitive. How can they say that? Its like as if they're saying that only 4 chinese can follow the 4 non-chinese.And of course the chinese people replied to them asking why can't they follow us since we are their friends as well and doesnt that sound a little racist? In the end,we gave them face and went there for their sake so that they could shut the bloody mouth up.Lucky for them,we're used to fasting and I really pity one of my GLs.The place was non-halal but she was terribly hungry and couldn't resist from watching others eating and so she was gobbling up all the halal stuff like fruits and chocolate.About the amount of food and cost,I better not say it because it was a TOTAL rip-off and will just give bad memories to some people.Again,this is what I meant by what you see may not be what I see.In their eyes,they thought they were right to make that kind of decisions without thinking of what might happen next but in the eyes of others,we view them as immature elders,yup,immature elders who think they're always right and are TOO sensitive.

Last but not least..Roy said I am not that popular among Kaistorians.True,I am not that popular..but is it because I don't mix much with Kaistorians? I told Roy..its been almost a month since F.O.C and Kaistor is STILL having outings almost every week.I was wondering,what the hell is wrong with these people?Yes okay I know you love Kaistor,so do I!But if this carries on and on and on,it just shows you are not moving on in life.C'mon..move on!I also told Roy that if your ring of contacts is just within Kaistor,then I guess I'm better at socialising because I make friends with everyone,not just people from Kaistor.I rather spend time going around meeting new people rather than just being in a small group for the whole 3 years or more of your poly life.So AGAIN,what you see may not be what I see. You may think that I don't bother going to outings and gatherings..but whats the point if you keep seeing the same people for each and every one of the gatherings and outings? Does that make you sound more friendly? Does that make you more popular? Yeah,perhaps..but only popular in Kaistor and not TP.

My final point.What's the purpose of saying all that? Again and again..what you see may not be what I see. You may think I'm some ignorant fucktard who doesnt gives a damn about this and that but the truth is I have thoughts running here and there.I learn alot of things through observing and I think alot about life.BUT..I may also not able to see what you see..but honestly,i wish to rephrase that. BUT..I may not able to see clearly what you see..because honestly,I do take the time to put myself in others' shoes and think why do they think in that way..I do.

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Posted By Zul at 11:50 PM